The Questing Beast

If you've ever read T. H. White's charming book, The Sword in the Stone, you may recall the character of the Questing Beast, whose sole purpose in life was to give King Pellinore a creature to hunt. Pellinore loved the chase, but didn't ever catch the Beast, and when Pellinore took a break to go "mollocking about in feather beds," the Beast pined away with loneliness till Pellinore found it and nursed it back to health so they could continue questing together.

I was reminded of that this week, reading my horoscope from Rob Breszny at Free Will Astrology. In part, he wrote, "Remember my promises: Life has been and will continue to be conspiring to get you settled in your ideal home base, supercharge your relationships with your closest allies, and connect you with the resources that will fuel your long-term quest." I am something of a Pellinore myself, and every so often I have to stop and make sure I am still questing after the right Beast.

That is my plan for this weekend. I am feeling somewhat stalled on all fronts of the work in progress that is my life, and I need to stop and reevaluate where I am going and what I am doing. Sometimes when I do this, I discover that the Beast has cunningly walked up the streambed for half a mile and is now off in a different direction. I think that may have happened to me again. If it is this hard for me to diet and exercise, even though I've been trying to get into the habit of this for over a month, then I cannot be on the right path.

I'm going to eat what I want to today, though it won't include pizza! I just want a day to enjoy my food instead of grimly chewing it down. And tomorrow I will start working on rethinking my diet and exercise...and life...plan, while I listen for the sound of the Beast.